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|Tuesday, March 20th, 2007|
Well, time to come clean. Things are bad in here right now. My metaphysical Here. That's why I haven't posted or even logged on. My anxiety meds aren't working. Plus, I ran out of them on Monday. (Have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to deal with some of that.) My heart meds aren't really working all the time. I'm sleeping WAY too long, waking up a lot. Eating like a maniac. Feeling completely overwhelmed. I snapped in two of my classes this week. I had to send an apology out to one class today because I fucking lost it. I don't even want to get on the scale...which is almost unheard of. That's why it was a bit hard for me to be more supportive of your awesome ten pounds the other day. Instead I came off sounding patronizing. Sucks. I'm really proud of you; this is the kind of break you needed. The worst part is that I've actually been getting some exercise, but it is so easily countered by eating out at restaurants. Dave and I have blown hundreds of dollars eating in restaurants this month. I think about that constantly. I don't know what's even up with that. I don't have any idea what's going on. I think I need a freaking vacation. Wonder when I'll ever be allowed to get that...
I think I need to go into pop star rehab. I think I'm just in a slump--frustrated and, well, frustrated. The fucking Heels better win tomorrow. I swear.
Don't worry: no plans to go postal. :)
Think good thoughts, and keep up the good work!
|Tuesday, February 27th, 2007|
Nothing positive to report. I had a really lazy weekend. Slept a LOT, felt generally sucky. The scale said I lost a pound and a half, but I think it must have been lying. I'm sure I'll get on it tomorrow and it'll show that I actually gained three pounds.
This weekend, we had some friends who were in town from Richmond and they spent the night Saturday with our friends Dave and Sandy. Well, we were all supposed to go to brunch on Sunday. David and I woke up around 11 on Sunday and waited until about 12 to hear from Dave and Sandy. When they din't call, we called and got the answering machine. So we sat around until about 1:30 waiting for them to call. When Dave finally called, they had already gone to brunch without us. They called another couple but didn't call us. I was so sad. It rocked my world pretty significantly, so this hasn't been the best week so far. Yuck. Sandy called back to apologize, but I'm not buying it. Sad.
|Wednesday, February 21st, 2007|
Nothing to report. No exercise. I have gone back on the wagon after a dangerous Valentine's feast. I've been trying to pound down water after getting pretty heart-sick on Monday. I didn't eat hardly any food that day and by the time I got home at 7:30, my heart was doing all kinds of crazy things, and it didn't get back to normal until long after I went to bed at 1:30.
Holding steady at 221.5. I don't like it, but I'll take it. We've been cooking a lot at home, so our food has been pretty fresh. I'm pleased about that. Tonight, I have to spend most of the night grading, so I'm hoping Dave will cook. Oh, I did have a huge moment of weakness yesterday. Again, I ate the whole box of mac n' cheese by myself. But I put peas in it; doesn't that help? Portion control is not in my nature, I think. So sad. And I missed the thing today about stress and food because I had class. Sucks.
Off to home to grade two classes worth of crappy papers.
|Wednesday, February 14th, 2007|
Valentine's Day is a bad day. It makes me very very sad. Filled with love, yes, but also filled with Janice's sourdough bread and Spacy Tracy's Chocolate Chip cookies. I went a little crazy at Just Desserts just now, but I'm already planning to call this day a loss since David and I give each other nice dinners as gifts. Yes, that needs to change. Perhaps tonight we'll talk about that.
I did do Tae Bo this morning, though. It really kicks my ass, and I feel nasty afterwards, but there is a great sense of accomplish when you survive something awful. If I can keep it up I know it will get a lot easier.
Portion control is a major problem for me and I don't quite know how to control it. Here's what I had yesterday:
Breakfast: I was running late so I skipped it.
Lunch: leftover Chicken a'la King and a fat-free pudding cup
Dinner: Yes, I ate a whole box of mac and cheese to which I had added peas and pimientos. It was fabulous and I loved every minute of it. I also had some whole wheat tortilla chips and homemade salsa. Oh, and I had a hard cider. It was wonderful.
Weight this morning: 221.5. Not happy, but it was 223 the other day. I know I need to be drinking more water again. Boo hiss. I'll start that again as soon as I'm done typing this.
When you work out, what is it that you are doing? How long do you do it? Is it fun? Does Blake do it with you?
Have a very happy day. Does sex count as a workout?
|Tuesday, February 13th, 2007|
Goals and Strategeries
I forgot: my goal here is just to keep this goal in mind and to remain accountable for it. Strategies: I don't know. Get feedback on what I'm doing or not doing. Be scolded when I need scolding. Be reminded that this is important.
My First Post
Hi. This picture is probably the last time I was allowed to feel comfortable with my weight. I was 4 1/2. I think you're right that we should just check in with our scales on Wednesdays. I think this could be really fun. I'll likely start every post with what I ate yesterday, so I'll start now.
Lunch: PB&J (natural PB) on wheat, Fat-Free pudding cup
Dinner: Chicken a' la King (almost all fat-free except for 1/2 cup of 2% milk, super lean chicken, and the pastry puffs). Portion size: too big.
Beverages: water, but not enough.
That's all I've got for yesterday. Current Mood: busy